Anxious

If you’ve never read my blog before, skip this post. Because it is very uncharacteristic of what I find to be important to inform the world of.

ANXIOUS, ANXIOUS, ANXIOUS!!

I’m anxiously waiting to hear back from one of my directors in Guatemala about my departure date. I have hit the level of fundraising I need to be able to move down to Guatemala, so I am trying to get things moving as quickly as possible because I am ANXIOUS to get down there! Why isn’t this ball moving as fast as I want it to!? I have never had my phone glued to me quite like this before. I feel like a high school girl waiting for a boy to call! “Why hasn’t he called yet!? What’s taking so long!?” I have never experienced such a lame dEsPeRaTiOn for a phone call. I can’t find anything to occupy my time with, so I am finding my blog as an outlet for my hyperactive energy. I keep thinking, “What else can I do to get ready?” and not finding anything satisfactory as progress towards leaving for Guatemala. So I’m occupying my time with trivial “Guatemala prep” such as reorganizing things in my room, checking my email 20 times a day, (emailing Seth three times today alone!), and writing this ridiculous blog post.

I have my goals for getting to Guatemala. But the problem is, I don’t know how realistic they are. How long does it take to move to another country? I feel like I am super ready. I have been making packing piles for days, and taking stuff to Goodwill, and calling banks, and checking airline prices, and, and, and… I’m just ready to GO now! The last week of April doesn’t sound so ridiculous does it? I can totally make that! I’m READY! I just need to get a date approved by the staff in Guatemala. They need to be ready to receive this tornado of excitement and enthusiasm!

And I have been extremely encouraged and enthused by the support I have been receiving from people. It is truly incredible how things have been coming together in just this past month. And of course I am referring to the incredible blessings I have received in the realm of finances, but also to the abundant support and encouragement that I have received from people who are just as excited about this ministry as I am! I love sharing news of this ministry with other people and allowing them to be inspired by it! And as far as fundraising goes, I have been UBER-blessed by unexpected sacrificial giving and I have almost 100% of my funds raised! Yes sir! The budget set by my directors! Not the stingy, just-scrape-by, unsustainable budget I had secretly planned in my mind in order to get me to the field faster. I am at a current support level of $1,383!!! That is just $117 away from my $1,500 budget! And I have been blessed with enough one-time gifts to carry me through if I move to Guatemala this month and work on finishing the rest of my fundraising from there.THANK YOU to all of you who have been praying through this process and to all of you who have recently committed to being a financial partner. I know it sounds lame and scripted when I say this, but it is absolutely and genuinely true: I COULD NOT DO THIS WITHOUT YOU!!

Ironically, a symbolic event that is occurring in the Villhauer household AT THIS EXACT MOMENT is the hatching of our baby chicks. These little buggers have been incubating for weeks and they are finally exiting their safe, familiar environment of a dark, cramped egg into a new, scary reality. But they are totally ready! They want to spread their wings and FLY! Well, as much as a chicken can fly, anyway. Not to get deep or anything, but this period of my life is causing me to be extra-reflective: I’m like a little chick trying to peck her way out of a safe, familiar, but cramped shell and fly. I AM READY! (Except the chicks aren’t pathetically chained to their cell phone)

Addendum: 2 hours after I posted this, I heard from Seth. May 10th is my OFFICIAL, approved target date!

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1 Comment (+add yours?)

  1. Cathy Leininger
    Apr 15, 2011 @ 19:05:23

    Britney — all is well. “The LORD bless you and keep you; the LORD make his face to shine upon you, and be gracious to you; the LORD lift up his countenance upon you, and give you peace.” (Numbers 6:24-26 NRSV) See you tomorrow about 1 or 2. Aunt Cathy

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